I am a born and raised Wisconsin girl and a gestational surrogate for an amazingly awesome couple from the Czech Republic. This blog documents everything on this incredible journey. A detailed timeline- surro style. Monday, May 19, 2014. And yes, a very large part of the new blog will be about JOURNEY NUMBER 2. hopefully kicking off SOON! So, stay tuned for my new blog! Will post a link here as soon as I have it ready. I miss you ALL terribly! One year ag.

Thursday, April 7, 2016. 4 years of infertility treatments. A surprise positive pregnancy test in a Starbucks bathroom. 8 weeks later, I take the pills that flush the would-be-baby from my body. There was no more heartbeat. May 1 due date means I would have been 37 weeks next week. G-man came just over 37 weeks.

Welcome Mothers, Fathers, Grandmothers, Grandfathers, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Friends and anyone else who needs an ear. Please come with an open heart. Please cry if you need to. Please connect with others who are in your same space. Please email me if you feel led to. Please comment so we know what you need. Saturday, September 4, 2010.

As Good As It Gets? Monday, December 29, 2014. We brought her home the next day. I had no clue it will be so difficult! And she was ill and had reflux. She kept puking all the time. But now? Now she is a thriving 8 month old baby. She is spirited, oh hell, she is spirited! Here she is with her great granny.

Monday, May 30, 2011. The car stops and I pop out and open the door to the backseat where a little boy grins back at me from his carseat. Happy raising my living child. The rainbow baby who came after. And yet the grief is still there. Monday, August 30, 2010. Sunday, August 29, 2010. Sunday, August 15, 2010.

The Unbridled Rantings of a Jaded Idealist. Thursday, 5 November 2009. Ladies and gentlemen, I think that I am content. I think that I am finally satisfied. And buoyed myself with the comfort of self-awareness. But to quote the Monkees.

Thursday, 19 October 2017. When Your Sibling is Verbally Abusive. How did we get here again? We were getting along so well. I say this to myself each time a normal conversation with my sister explodes into an argument. As I write this we are not speaking to each other.

Monday, September 07, 2009. Its time for a new blog. Sunday, September 06, 2009. It has been such a long time since I have blogged. I have wanted to blog but my world is. The babies are totally the easy part. They stick to their little schedules. Just sleeping, pooping, feeding. The rest of my life has been messed up. Monday, July 06, 2009. Family of 4 a dog.